depressed... really. i wanted to sleep all day but the funny thing is, kids just don't let you do that.
thought about Brian A LOT today.
in an attempt to just get out of the house, we went to the Pilgrim Place Festival, a great craft fair that raises money for retired missionaries. we went there last year with B and reminisced over the memories. Av got her face painted and was a bumblebee...
she was on the hunt for bees all day long -- crafts, novelty items, you name it. McK was just into collecting rocks, eating cotton candy, making swiggles [melted crayon art] and doing the infamous glue-in [plastics/wood scrap/corks/etc. that we would all consider trash are saved all year by the seniors there and then put out in a special area for all the kids to glue to cardboard pieces in an attempt to do art.] the girls got to hang out with some special friends too and that was nice for them.
tonight had dinner with Paul & Kieva and their boys discussing a variety of things... good, thought provoking conversation.
i miss you, Brian. i love you. i wish you were here. there are so many things i want to share and discuss with you. i guess i need to give myself a day at the beach and just talk, write, cry. Life After is tough....
and in addition to all that, i feel like i am getting sick. phht.
My pastor said something that I thought you might like to use as a mantra at times like these. "It is what it is. God understands. We don't have to."
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