Tuesday, October 9, 2012

miracle needed

i am just a girl who loves God and is looking for a Jesus-style miracle in this little ol' life of mine. I do realize that the miracle may have already been done. He did say, "take up your mat and walk." 

but i am still waiting -- and looking -- for a miracle. 

life seems so daunting and monstrous right now. i need a miracle to even face it.

lots of talk about miracles lately -- in the Bible and present day.

i just need one for me. 

or two...

Lord, let me eyes be open to see it ~ my ears be open to hear it ~ my heart be open to receive it.


Monday, October 1, 2012

The beginning....again

it's time... again. my former life as a married woman with my own home is still hanging over my head. my possessions are in three different places. 

there is such a desire in me to start over... 

press the reset button... 

have a 'do-over'...

every time i start to go through my things, do anything that's difficult, or that i think i won't be able to do well, i give up. today i was praying about this issue i have. praying that God would help me. 

these words came to mind --- "Consider it all joy..."

but what was the rest of the verse? how did it go? so i looked it up.

here goes:

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverence must finish it's work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he's a doubts in like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double minded man, unstable in all he does.
James 1:2-8
as i said before, i usually give up. this time i will persevere and get through the task that is set before me. the picture above is from inside my car, full of stuff. i went through it and you know what? i threw out about 70% of it. 

this has been a daunting task from the beginning. i have lived without all this stuff for 3 years but when i see it, it brings all those memories flooding back. but i am praying for a miracle -- possibly for the release from my unimportant, meaningless possessions from a former life? yes, there are things that have meaning....those i will keep. but so many things have no meaning anymore.

God is moving and getting ready to take me places. i don't know where those places are but i do know i need to be ready. 

and here is where it begins.... 

Sunday, September 9, 2012

The 3 main reasons I carry on...

Today marks the anniversary of my widowhood...


...and it seems like my life now is a long hallway. 
i am alone.
but there is that open door. 
do you see it? 
i am not there yet and am not ready to be but i will walk through it... in due time.
i just need to put one foot in front of the other and move forward.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

School's in

As part of our school day, the girls are working through these....by their suggestion. Surely God is fashioning them into young women at His feet on a path to healing.

So grateful....