after thinking much about writing and my intense need to do it, i have decided to keep a blog of life... Life After my dear husband's death just 38 days ago. am i counting? not really, but it still seems surreal. seconds turn in to minutes, minutes to hours, hours to days, and so on. life goes on... there is Life After. breathe in, breathe out.
i imagine that he will call me any moment as he so often did. how i long to have a conversation with my best friend. i keep thinking that i must remember what friends have said or done because their words and/or actions have been so amazing and comforting and loving towards me and the kids -- really because they love him so much and that has been extended to us. he would want to know. i want to tell him. i want to share with him the exciting things that God is doing because of the life he lived and his obedience to God despite his struggles. did he know how many people he affected? really, do i? i don't think anyone ever does realize the impact we make on the people we meet, know and develop relationships with, whether in years past or in recent days.
so, herein lies the documentation of Life After. Life After a tragedy where my husband, the father of my children, no longer dwells physically but only in spirit and memory as we, the ones left behind, go on. i wonder how the world can go on while i am wondering what went wrong or what i must do now. but we must; therefore, to help heal my broken heart, i will faithfully document the life of my family after this life altering event.
Here begins Life After.
Heidi,
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful like a rainy day. You know, like the way gray clouds and drizzling rain illuminate everything green outside. Of course it's probably easier to appreciate the beauty from inside, behind the window.
I know that you are out in the rain right now, but you are our window, helping us see the beautiful life that was and is.
And will be.
Thank you for sharing.
Love,
Theresa