Monday, December 21, 2009

the Christmas spirit -- denied?

today was an emotionally difficult day for me and i am finding this to be more and more true about every day as Christmas approaches.

why difficult today? i promised the girls that we would get a real Christmas tree in addition to the amazing wreath we got from our friends in WA so that the yummy smell of a pine and the glowing lights on the tree would fill the room and give the feeling of Christmas. we still have the living tree we had last year but it needs a replanting and some serous help...

well, my initial plan failed... you see, i found these great small trees at fresh & easy -- my favorite grocery store -- for $15. they were the perfect size for mom & dad's tiny little house on vernon. so i decided to be 'smart' and wait to get one closer to Christmas so it would last longer. well, as with all things, if something is seasonal and you really want it, don't wait. well, i did and they were all gone -- ALL GONE! i could have fallen into a puddle right there in the store [it's was raining, so it was already representative of how i felt :)]. so we walked around the store to get what we needed minus the tree and we went home.

so today i woke up sad. Brian's yearly insistence on getting a real tree which he has passed on to his girls was, well, not going to be a reality this year.

the girls did have me buy a preassembled gingerbread house at f&e so that they could decorate it.... i let them do it today despite my 'humbug' attitude.

maybe there will be a bright spot in this day.... we shall see.

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