just heard the song "i can't live (if living is without you)" by air supply. classic 70's song but never listened to the lyrics before. tears were rolling.
it's my 2nd mother's day without him. i'm functioning. emotions are raw.
i had a decent day but trying to do what i want to do on a day that's for me is virtually impossible when my kids are present. of course they aren't behaving, running around like crazy natives and saying every 5 minutes, "i want to go home."
it's days like today that make me so angry he died. why? because there's no one to share the burden of raising 3 great kids that stress me out sometimes. when my patience is wearing thin, there's no one to step in and say, "give your mom a break." and because my mom and i live in the same house and it's her day, too.... well, it's just -- hard.
i give these feelings over to Jesus right now. restore my heart to love and patience. help me to carry on to the best i can be for those three little hearts entrusted to me. Amen.
to any mom who's reading this, Happy Mother's Day. whether dad is involved or not, you are an amazing mom able to do more than you think because God made you who you are and gave you your children and your circumstances for a reason. i pray God's blessings over you and your family.
Happy Mother's Day.
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